I've been at odd's with a restless soul
  I've felt the pain whenI lost control
  I said the words but could not explain
  The hurt fades but the scars remain
    Got myself into situations
  Ignored the threats and ministrations
  Guilt choked by my last breath
  I scared myself to death
    So take my tears take all my fucking pain
  I hope you're entertained
    I fell prey to my own theatrics
  Been diagnosed by the psychiatrics
  Mistakes that i have made
  I've left myself betrayed
    I've lied to those i love
  I'd medicate but there's never enough
  No tears for the lives I've wrecked
  I've lost my self respect
    And now I'm reaching back
  And I'm trying to make things right
  And through my past I've gained a deeper sight
  I'm less than proud of what I've done
  But I know I've got to change
  Somehow I know it's only just begun
  Begun to change it's all on me
  There's no one else to take the blame
  But I'm still caught up in this game